Friday, March 25, 2005 | The $ Chromosome
So, I'm here thinking how to pay April's rent.. I'm at a complete loss as to how to make money with what I have right now. The only thing I really have are my modest talents and control of my own time... I figure you can't buy either of these things so I need to figure out something.
These thoughts have occupied my mind for ever but now it's even more invasive.. it's everywhere.. I'm here typing and I look around my desk.. I see a water bottle, perry ellis perfume, memorex CD's, some unopened fake eyelashes I refused to glue to my eye ball lol dunno why I haven't given it away yet.. I see white board markers for my white board, eraser, some old flyers, some glasses.. all of these things at one point or other were just an idea in someone's head. EVERYTHING.. even the IDEA of these things that were at one point unknown to the world.. like CD's or Whiteboards.. even my keyboard.. I need to strike Gold.. I guess that's why I keep thinking even subconsciously.. how can I get me out there.. how can I get mine? I don't like to dream about getting paid... there's got to be soemthing I can do.
Thank fully I have a few clients and even better I have people who believe in me.. That's a blessing I don't even know what I ever did to deserve! Because as I sit here I know there might be a limit to what I can physically do for ME... the rest is up to the network of people God has placed in my life.. my fate.. my destiny.. it definitely can't be THIS forever and ever. (Amen)
I"m really anxious about finding work don't get it twisted.. but even if I do.. how can I sell out my own dreams.. my own work.. the work I've been doing since school.. If I were ever faced with making a choice, I think that would be the hardest decision in my life. As I wait for that job to come.. I can only stay strong and work for me.. do what's best RIGHT NOW.. I still gotta have that "Master Plan" though.. guess I"ll have a lot to pray about this weekend.. in addition to giving thanks for Easter in general.. Wow.. what a time in my life this is.. I can't help but think there's more.. but I really don't know how to get there!
I was watching the 60minutes interview of Jay-Z last night at like 3am. The interviewer asks Jay, "What would you have thought if 15 years ago, someone told you that you would be rich.. and I mean VERY rich.. what would you have said or thought?".. Jay andsered "HOW?". That is exactly how I feel.. I have so little ( seemingly ) maybe I haven't found potential soemwhere and it's infront of my face? Who knows.. but I'm asking.. HOW? Where do I look? where do I start? What do I need? Who do I speak to? How can I get there.. that place I see everytime I close my eyes.. I might even be too focused on the end result and blind to the WAY... fuck I don't know.. I really don't. listening to what Jay said though.. he had what he NEEDED and even HE didn't even know! Like I said.. sometimes it's right infront of your eyes.
On another note, I've been thinking about starting another naija community. Not too sure why, I just feel I can so why not? It'd just be for fun oh.. nothing too deep at all.. I'm definitely not that deep so it'd be a laid back place online for us people. It would be centred around exactly what is missing in our online communities today.. and I definitely want it more international.. not with everyone from from one state or city populating the place with their brand of Naija-ness..
There's so much more out as naija's we're everywhere.. where yuo're living NOW is not what it's about. I also would like a wider age range.. like 16-80. Having just college students can be tedious.. with them just discovering porn or girls or whatever stupidness.. it definitely gets old. Something more enlightened but still very casual.. I dunno that's the kind of community I think will keep people coming back and still not be boring. Maybe I should try and make some affiliations and get things going finally.. I registered the domain.. just need the motivation I guess to make things happen..
Alright that's it for me and my rants.. Wishing everyone a safe and happy Easter break..
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Saturday, March 12, 2005 | My quest for a pet continues
So, you know the whole "pet parrotlet" idea didn't work out.. might link to the archives if I have time... Turns out I'm scared of birds.. well I'm scared of all animals and I knew that going in but i was REALLY hoping I wouldn't scream and kill the bird swatting it furiously.. well.. I freaked out in front of the bird lady and she kindly escorted us out and told me to buy a fish.
Undeterred, I've dcided to get the very animal I SWORE I woud never get.. but I think I've changed my mind mainly because I don't have to get a BIG dog.. I want something that can barely bark, bite or shit. That was also the reason the bird thing wore off quickly.. they shit like nobody's business and when they eat they're super messy.. and I'm not cleaning after NOBODY OR ANYTHING!
I narrowed my pet search to small "handbag" sized dogs... mostly cuz everyone has one and they seem highly trained.. ( at least enough not to shit in the designer dog-carrier-bag's these celebrities buy.. I mean I could pimp out my car for what they spend on their gucci / prada / LV Dog totes... ) Anyway... I had orginally thought Haley Duff's Pomeranian would be the breed for me but, after seeing these pictures of a Pekingese I'm in love!!!!!!!! they;re sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute!!! I think I will try and visit one soon... to see if they're hyper dogs.. I'm not into hyper dogs at all.. they scare me.. especially if they're small.. my friend has a long haired terrier.. it's about th size of your forearm and weight like 5 punds.. they move like Nigerian Rats.. when I'm there they have to lock it up cuz I'm like on their dinning table screaming trying to get away from the little critter.. so yes if the Pekingese dog is a tame as it is cute... I might finally have a pet of my verrrry own... aaaaaaw!
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Thursday, March 10, 2005 | bullshit rap wars
So we can all rest easy.. the ridiculously baseless so-called beef over some disloyal actions has beed squashed.
I just find it so entertaining how 50 and his crazzzzzzzzy delusions of grandeur are getting his mouth running... that's th fastest way to get yourself in too deep.
So after hearing some gunshots he knows what's up.. I know everyon at interscope including dr.Dre and all the REAL executives are like WTH sort that shit out we've go albums to sell.. I just don't get it.. whose ego is to blame? The Game's or 50's? 50 cent has enough conceit to rival Kanye Wests'... and it seems The Game doesn't want to listen since he's feeling pretty high off his own success... one freakign tour overseas and he thinks he' made... silly kids.
50 speaks on all his beefs.. he has more beefs than hit records he needs to relax a lil
50 lashes out at The Game...
The Game responds...
young Buck had to side with 50.. I guess we know who's paying his lawyer bills.
Jadakis adds his 2 kobo
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Thursday, March 03, 2005 | Crazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzy World
So, schools starting t get hectic.. That is SO not cool.. I was really looking forward to an easy ride at school. Now that I have all this time off I was also hoping to get working on other things that I haven't had time for. two whole days I've been doign sch work... and more to come tomorrow.
Anyway, can't wait for the weekend... Might catch another movie this weekend. Maybe Constantine. Saw Hitch last weekend.. or was it the weekend before that? I'm starting to loose track of dates but I do know the days of the week..! :-D lol
Nothing to comment on sha.. just gotta blog when the feeling hits I guess.
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