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Wednesday, May 28, 2003 | If you haven't seen teh matrix:reloaded... you might not want to read this blog until after :p
The movie ended exactly 33mins ago... it's a little past midnight.. I just got home.. and I can't stop thinking about the Matrix.
For the first time.. I went to whatis the matrix.com.. I have avoided that site all this time because I'm trying not to ruin anything.. I want it to unfold for me as it was 'meant' to... And as I watched I tried to catch as many of the subliminal messages, double entendre's, answers from the first movie as possible.. at the end my firend and I talked about it on the drive home.. she'd already seen it so she noticed a little more than I had since it was her second time around.. and I noticed some things she still hadn't noticed or thought about... just because like the first movie this one just had me.... puzzled. What does it all mean anyway?? I mean I 'caught' the whole decicion making thing... it started in teh first movie really with Neo having to choose between somany things ( the red and blue pill; to follow the rabbit or not; to save Morpheus or himself ) he's been making choices from the very beginning.. and everything in that first movie was 'meant' to happen.. just as the oracle and teh keymaker repeated over and over.. If you remember in teh first movie when Morpheus mentioned how the original "one" free'd the first few people and created Zion? we now know that that was all MEANT to happen.. he was the previous Neo.. the previous Anomoly.. and now Neo ending teh cyclical nature of the matrix and all it's inherent anomolies was meant to do tha same thing AGAIN.. pick 17 or how ever many people and of course prohesize that there would be another "one" another anomoly... The Oracle herself said as much when she told Neo he might be "waiting for another life".. but regardles, everything was MEANT to happen.. which the Arcitect later verified.. that his being there was no accident... but a contigency plan for a mathematical anomoly.. of course we all knwo it's a little more than that and the "change" at the end just proved that... ANyway.. aside from the re-emergence of "Agent Smith" at the end and his POSSIBLE link to the thing that had "changed" this anomoly from any others ( if you remember, he mentioned he knew what he was "SUPOOSED" to do but he decided NOT to go and destroy himself.. he made a CHOICE ( an ah-hah! moment happened here fro me btw ) andyway he made a choice.. but why? how HUMAN is this machine anyway? Agent smith has always been more human than any other Agent... making choices.. getting angry e.t.c. it was all so intruiging really.. but the thing that really "cooked my noodle" was the kiss. Why did Persephone want to be kissed..? Ther emight not be much meaning there... but nevertheless it had me thinking.. so ofcourse.. the first thing I did was head to whatithe matrix.. for some answers....
I didn't look too long before I remembered how much the theory of Simulacra and Simulation played in the first movie.. and that got me thinking about the names of the characters themselves... still wondering about the kiss, the name of Persephone's husband caught my eye. Merovingian. Actually the moment the Oracle mentioned it I was like "say wha?"... but then I knew... it was a clue.. it had to mean something... If I lost anyone on that Simulation and Simulaccra thing by the way then you need to do some research.... watch teh movie... and scour the i-net to find ur answers... clues are everywhere... anyway.. about Merovingian.. I found this interesting article: http://www.21stcenturyradio.com/merovingian-twyman.htm the second parapgraph is of specific interest... it reads:
the Merovingian dynasty from which he came, have been romantically mythologized in the annals of both local legend and modern mystical pseudo-history, but few have understood the true meaning and origins of their alluring mystery. The mystique that surrounds them includes attributions of saintliness, magical powers (derived from their long red hair), and even divine origin, stemming from their supposed descent from the one and only Jesus Christ..... However, the importance of the divine origin of the Merovingians, and the antiquity from whence it comes, has never to this author's knowledge been fully explored by any writer or historian.... the mystery that surrounds them, lies ultimately with a race of beings, "Nephilim," or "Fallen Angels," who created mankind as we know him today...
Their race was known by various names. In Greece, the Annodoti. In Sumeria, the Annunaki. In the Celtic lore, the Tuatha de Danaan. In the Semetic scriptures (Torah, Talmud, Old Testament, and other Apocryphal texts like the Book of Enoch), they are called The Nephilim, "The Sons of God," or the Watchers. They are described as having attachments such as wings, horns, and even fish scales, but from the depictions it is clear that these are clothes or costumes worn for their symbolic value, for these symbols indicated divine power and royal blood. The gods themselves had their own monarchy, with laws of succession similar to our own, and they built a global empire upon the Earth, with great cities, temples and monuments, and mighty nations established on several continents. They created mankind as a slave race to work on their farms and in their gold mines, among other things. The Sumerian legends are very clear: man was made to "bear the yoke of the gods."
coincedence....? I think not!! The Wachowsky (sp) brothers...oh My God..! WHO study's this shit!!!!! I swear I catch somethign small like that completely by accidentand I feel like I've been asleep at the wheel.. I'm happy I'll be going back again on thursday with my cousin and my sis to watch it again. This time I can try to decipher a little more about this Merovingian dude and maybe why he is important at all? I mean it's no mistake that he is french.... ( and I"m quite sure it has nothing to do with the brash insults the French have sustained from the "west" as a result of their hesiattion during the "War on Terror" or whatever it was called... ) I think there is a deeper connection with this Merovingian dynasty and the French... But will I get an answer to my question about the kiss? And the link to Vampires.. ghosts e.t.c.... the so called bad seed of the Matrix.. Thy are just as unwelcome here int eh real world aren't they? I mean If I ran into a vampire more than likely I'd scream and run.. they aren't exactly the friendliest bunch according the every movie I've seen... They're disgustins, lawless creatures who do what they want.. move through back doors.. e.t.c. But in the movie, could they be 'the Gods'?? Will this be the "key" to unlock the Matrix? Or perhaps I've just gone Mad?? hum....... so many questions...
One things' for sure, the Matrix is more than a bunch of really cool stunts or even good excuse to spend $6.....
Unfortunately, no one can be told what the Matrix is. You have to see it for yourself
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Wednesday, May 21, 2003 | London is so freaking cold!! I know I live in Canada and all but WOW... the cold here is unyeilding... not even the sun wants to be in London! After a week in Italy being back here in London doesn't quite make it... actually to be completely honest I don't think I've even seen the sun once since I've been here. British people in there oh so posh accents ask "are you awright,luv?" and I'm like "fuck no! it's cold!! or hadn't you noticed?" I'm sure they must wonder what the American is "on about" or whatever since they are shocked to find out there are black people in Canada.. I don't usually stop to correct anyone who thinkins I'm american... who cares really...? anyway, what the bitish \BELIEVE to be the sun is actually just an area of warmth in the sun.. I haven't seen the usual blinding light of the REAL sun since I landed two weeks ago. I would elieve anyone who told me the sun has never shone(sp) in London... honestly.. the only time I take off my jacket is to shower... I try to be in the kitchen as much as possible because it seems to be the only place around that the walls themselves don't seen like ice... it's such a miserable place....
Actually London looks pretty when it rains.. which must be why it's rained so much... everything looks so clean.. the air is crisp and every one looks sharp. I hate to say it.. but I'm sure they walk so fast cuz it's always cold and wet outside.. who would wanna linger out there?? I remember the last time I was in London for any period of time.. I remembered the sun.. the heat.. we came in the dead of summer.. I'm beginning to think the blistering heat is nothing more than my imagintion because I had so much fun the last time.. whenever I remeber a good time I get warm all over..... hum...
With all my moanin about the weather, if you think I didin't enjoy my time here you'd be wrong.. and very far from the truth.. it's really been a sweet trip.. somewhat tiring because I've never moved so much since like last summer? And I forgot how much "fun" it was taking the bus hahahahahaha.. that's a lie.. I miss my car like CRAZY.. but it was cool though.. cuz if there's anywhere I'd wanna be taking public transport it woud have to be in jand.. ( London ). We've shopposed a little, partied a little ( at home or other peoples houses but no club or pub ) and ate even more than those two combined!!! DAMN I love this place... onje ti pupo!! wow.. and my cuz'n can cook her ass offffff!! her peppersoup can put someone to sleep man.. it's just so satisfying.. just smelling it can have you drooling no jokes.. so she's cooked for us every day.. actually even when we were in Roma we were eating like Queens :o) I'm very pleased... who doesn't love to be pampered? Fried rice one day, eja the next not obokun either oh.. nice Salmon which is our fav.. Iyan, obe ila, ogbono.. wow.. even Chin chinm str8 from naija.. I really ate my way through london with the plantain chips from upton park.. I can't lie I missed those even more than my cousins.. hehehe.
Being here among family and friends just goes to show how small the world is.. it never ceases to amaz me how many people know me and how little about them I remember.. I mean.. people just walk up to me and say hi by my name.. and all I can do is try to disguise the blank look on my face with one of recognition.. I think I perfected that on my trip to naija last year.... who knew we knew so many people and that so many people knew us?? like in Canada I can go a whole year and only see the black faces of people I've known for years.. the rest are just oyinbo's so to be anywhere where I see blacks ( nigerian at that ) who I don't knwo but know me.. relatives or not.. it;'s just a sweet thing.. might be hard for anyone to understand.. but that's another thing that keeps me smiling in London.. all the new-old faces... I only have a few days left.. but still a few people to visit.. I'm always shy but naija peeps are so full of hospitality that never lasts.. I mean how can you not smile when you hear the word "pretty" 7 times in a day.. hum... candy could get used to that in a hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry!!
Today is actually my first day alone.. I slept a long time.. I'm really exhausted.. I finished reading all the books I had.. and the UK version of MTV gets dry fast.. I called this guy I met about a week ago.. he wasn't home. I didn't leave a message.. I'll probably leave that number in London.. I mean what's the point?? I gave some other dude my number in Canada.. I'm not sure why.. I regretted it that instant.. you can't really trust men in London.. I've learnt that the hard way.. they're a ton of fun and stuff.. but there are too many variables when dealing with UK men.. especially African one's.... hopefully he won't call... even though I know he will.. poor guy was beggin g so hard esp after I said I'm not even from London! Besides, I've had my share of bad-love jand style... there are enough memories in these streets to choke and stifle me.. the first few days even I was caught up in nostalgia and if I hadn't been so overwhelmed by out hectic sightseeing, people-visiting, naija food eating, tube-riding schedule, I don't know what I would have done to escape those thoughts... anyway... I'm sure once I get home I'll be so swamped with work I won't even have time for any sort of activity that could cause heartache..... ( as usual )... but on the real? It's too bad vacations couldn't last forever....
my time's up... peas
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Tuesday, May 06, 2003 | dang people can be so anoying without even trying.. it's amazing really. So my boss calls this morning.. erm. actually it was 2pm but I was JUUUST getting out of bed.. which is good timig on my part ( and his ) cuz that fucker likes to call like super early sometimes.. ( before 11am and stuff ) can u imagine? so when he does this he NEVER offers to call back at a decent time.. he just kind of laughs and asks me if I'm still sleeping... har har.. I always say "oh no, I've been up for hours" which sometimes is true but oftentimes it's a big fat lie.. anyway so he calls today.. and instewad of our usual early morning banter he says "what's wrong" and I'm like "nothing, why?" so he says "nothing you just sound a little grumpy" oh my LORDDD!! my jaw dropped! I think I laughed a little at how ridiculous his comment was... like wtf? how chipry do you expect me to be? oh please I'm blacck and I'm broke.. I don't have much to be chirpy about so I'm thinking this guy needs to get to the point so I can go back to sleep..
I normally wouldn't be that irked by that comment.. especially since I had just woken up.. but the fact was I wasn't grumpy and I never ever am.. lease of all to my boss ( who pays me ) I'm always nice to people who pay my ass... no matter what. But my main beef is this weird physosis bosses seem to have that makes them think people have to be bouncing off teh walls just to talk to them? like gettttoutta here!!! lol... I'm so happy nobody knows about this domain.. it feels nice to be able to talk behind everyone's back ( sorta ) and just be FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
the flight is so soon.. can'tbelieve it's come already.. * sigh * I have to pack tomorrow.. maybe get soem shopping done before I jet... okay maybe I'mnot so broke.. but I'mbroker than I think I should be... besides, being broke is relative isn't it? I mean if Bill gates were as rich as Oprah he might feel "restricted" somehow by the "limited" funds in his bank account... and Oprah still has to work everyday.. ( by choice I guess but still ) Bill Gates just runs around having fun.. giving speeches and shit.. he probably only really worked for 5 years tops.. anyway.. that's their life.. one thing for sure is neither fo them could survive on my budget.. but that's not brain science.
an e-friend of mine recently moved back to naija with his family.. I can't help wondering what he's going through right now. I spoke with my broter a few days ago and he said the rains where flodding the roads and stuff... one thing about africa is the extreme weather... when it's hot it's HOT when it rains... it pours.. it's that serious down there you can't fuck around with a regular umbrella.. you like need a house.. and that might not even be enough sometimes.. but my friend must be going through culture shock... he's a brat too.. I think he like took every known luxury back with him.. but at the end of the day you're still in naija.. and not where you're used to living... hes lucky in a way though because I secretly envy him.. I mean he gets to travel so much.. so at least he's had that exposure and I know he won't be stuck in naija or anything.. his family is well off so he'll still get to "escape" when the oppurtunity comes... but oh to be in naija for like a long stretch of time? a year or two? WOW I can't help but smile when I think of it.. to eat live breathe that air every single day.. I knwo it's supposed to be hard living.. but that's exactly what would make it sweet... I think I'd look at the whole thing like a journey.. and adventure.. a rediscovery of what life is like ina different place... I mean who says living in a first world country is necessarily thebest thing for African people..? apart from the safety, healthcare and $$$ what else is there? we give up a lot of shit in exchange for another pile of shit.. so it's whatever.. I wouldn't mind being back home for sure.. matter of fact, I would consider it a blessing if that oppurtunity came my way.....
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