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Saturday, June 29, 2002 | this is the second time I've lost a great blog.. I'm seriously considering scrapping this whole bloggin thing. I think I'm going to be serious about not making it about my personal life and more about rants or whatnots.. and anything else I feel like putting..
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Thursday, June 20, 2002 | so much for this blog not getting personal... I guess it is what it is?.. now I wish I could combine the two and just let it be what it is.
anyway, I'm kinda pissed.. actually maybe just sad. I just worked so hard on something for someone, sacrficed my site and some school work time even to do this for them.. countless hours just brainstorming ideas.. recovering from mistakes and getting the thing done. You know what? not evena word of thanks.. I've been glued to this computer for so damn long, my reflection burned into the moitor.. how fucking sad. That's why I hate doing things for people sometimes.. it's just a thankless job!
I guess I have no one but myself to blame.. maybe I'm really mad because I made sacrifices. i.e. not studying enough for classes.. maybe I just used it as an escape from studying? an excuse not to study? shuu I dunno.. but either way I'm just feeling very SPENT.
To top it off.. I'm really not going to even enjoy the fruits of my labour.. I'll wait two more weeks and see... My trip to yankee is also on hold but I'm going for sure.. forget all that crap I said yesterday! :-) I'll go into debt I need a damn break! no jokes.
My OS teacher has told me that I better consider coming to more classes.. seems I've missed too much? I'm there ofte n but the damn pace is killing me. Like what am I doing in school 4 days a damn week. Three classes? Fuck. Anyway now I have no choice.. I can't fail I'm trying to finish up like my friends and move. I know where I need to be and this is not it.
See.. these long ass blogs are what I get after not blogging for so damn long. And what (you ask) have I been doing for the last few months? WHy was I on hiatus for so damn long? It's simple.. I have no damn clue. I have to go study UNIX.. brb
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Wednesday, June 19, 2002 | I'm lost. I have no clue how or why my great hopes for this summer slowly but SURELY slipping thru my fingers like sand. Beginnign of this year I had no clue or hope about what this year would bring. that is the honest truth. But then, as the months went by the year started shaping itself and with it shaped some tentative plans and allowed me to realize some goals. without boring you with details I just have to say all that is out the fucking window. Life's something else.. while the winds of circumstance are blowing my best intentions and aspirations for this year way beyond my reach all I feel is powerless. First, it seems I won't be able to go to toronto! I'm still trying to push that one down harddddd! I haven't been there for over a year and it's a botu damn time.. I'm going to miss the cruise. Miss my friends new baby and miss all those hotties in toronto!! what b.s.! As if that wasn't enough, it seems I might not be able to go to the US either.. but that is a whole other ball of wax.. I might be able to go but I won't have a red penny to spend..!! Which is the main reason the trip to toronto is off. I'm not putting my whole business ou there but damn being broke is a bitch. I'm tired of being broke! Anyway, the main reason is because tuition prices got like a 30% hike all around ( bastards ) and they still have the audacity to cut classes and cramp 40 students when 25 is the maximum.. well ok that's an exxaggaration but shit I'm on a roll.
Anyway, I didn't bother paying for the classes... so yea I still do have some dough but I'm thinking I can't live the way I want becuz I'm afraid if I splurge it has to be either or ( school,toronto,US) period. No food, No epo ( petrol ) , do not pass go and heck no you ain't gettin $200. Damn... how tha *%^# did THIS happen?!
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